Mine

Good Morning

I woke up early this morning, 6 am yet again. I opened my eyes and immediately heard my phone go off, I received a text from someone in Ireland :

"Got tricked into smokin e last night...

bad buzz today. bad buzz.

my insides are so scared! Have to sit beside the water to be safe. "

and another text:

" there were dots on the screen that was my vision, that meant fatal error. And I'm pretty sure someone is going to kill me today. "

(tsk tsk)

On another note. I have been in this house for 5 days on my own. Old houses creak and squeak and go bang in the night. I should know that by now, i've lived in a 200 year old house and a 500 year old house in ireland.... but something about the city made me nervous . Each creak and bang made me imagine murderers and robbers and rapists morphing from the shadows in my peripheral vision.

I put on a bit of a fake brave face before I left i guess, laughing off anyone who doubted my bravado.

But after the first night, all the nerves have dissapeared. the noises I hear in the night are now oddly comforting. I could see myself forgetting they are there soon enough, as I did with the noises of the cicadas by our house back in pennsylvania.

But now I feel so safe. Safer than I ever did in the dorms (shudder). I can be alone here, it's a bit of an escape. I've always been an introvert and enjoyed being by myself... that must come from those years in Ireland on the side of a mountain, or being bookish, or maybe its just the way i was born. I like having only myself to deal with. sitting in this big creaky house feels so natural, and I'm becoming to enjoy simple housekeeping . cooking real meals, cleaning, doing the dishes. having my own bedroom, living room, dining room, bathroom, room room room. so much room.

I now have a better understanding of homeowners pride, It makes me want to be 30 and have a house thats entirely mine.

I spent all day yesterday lovingly unpacking and setting up a bed in my new bed room. I didn't step foot outside the entire day, and found myself getting fairly obsessed with setting up my room perfectly. No more couch sleeping.

and the most amazing wonderful beautiful exciting amazing amazing amazing thing happened.

I finally fixed my camera! All summer it's been throwing a bit of a hissy fit, no more. no more. I took a few breaks from unpacking and bed making to snap a few photographs of the new house.

This place makes me happy.