bad bad bad

I'm sitting in my bed woozy and kind of light headed

my mother my friend liz and myself split two bottles of wine between us tonight

made a cake

complained about men

about life

shared stories about wanting children.

I've never felt more like a women.

So strange

I haven't blogged in a while i feel. Maybe its only been a few days. I don't know if i have the ability to properly write what's in my head currently. I probably shouldn't try. I should probably close my computer, and write what I want to write in my Journal. My private, safe journal. But no. I'm too lazy and the alcohol is making me not care who reads this. that's bad. Anyone could stumble across my little website, a place for me to gripe and complain about nothing worth complaining about.

I set off a metal detector today. My screws in my leg set it off. it was at TJ Maxx. I had to explain to the sales clerk that I had metal in my body and no, i was not stealing anything. I am getting on a plane in 5 days. I will set off the alarms at the airport and I hope that I do not get strip searched like my mother says I will.

goodnight I need to get off of this website before I write down what I'm thinking.

I do not need to put in words what is in my head, its hard enough to think it.

Oh bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad

ugh.